Matrix red or blue pill5/2/2024 ![]() A week later I got my period, and then exactly 28 days after that I was back to normal. I was a tiny bit nauseous but that was it. ![]() ![]() But after taking the morning after pill, I was not sick at all. I never thought anything of what happened next back then, and it wasn’t until I was diagnosed with hyper fertility that this incident came back into my head. If I took the blue pill I would kill any chance of that happening and everything would eventually go back to normal. If I took the red pill I would run the risk of getting pregnant and being a teenage mother. It really was a take the red pill/take the blue pill moment. I had the pill in in my hand, and a glass of water in front of me. ![]() “It is up to you, but do you really want an unplanned pregnancy and baby?” asked the doctor when I hesitated about taking it. I remember being more worried that I would be violently sick, as I have emetophobia which is the fear of being sick, and I hesitated about taking it. I remember the doctor there explaining that it would have awful side effects and it would likely make me violently sick, and although I would have a period a bit earlier than normal it would then take a while for things to settle down completely in that department as they would be a bit erratic for a month or two. Nick and I went to our local family planning clinic where I was prescribed the morning-after pill. After all, even in the early 1990’s there was still quite a stigma about being a teenage mother, but things were starting to improve on that front. I was SO scared about the possibility of getting pregnant, there was no way on earth I could be a mother at the age of 16/17! I didn’t want it at all, I wasn’t at all ready to be a mother, and I was scared about what my parents would say or do if it happened, and the shame it would bring. But two months later we discovered that a condom we were using had broken. I lost my virginity with him in March 1990, and we were SO careful then with contraception. After all, I was the one who was overweight, wore glasses and was extremely unpopular at school compared to many of the other “glamourous” girls because I was into heavy metal music, yet here I was with a boyfriend of my own when many of the other girls were single. We got together when I was 16 through some “matchmaking” via a mutual friend, and I was on cloud nine. I was with him for four years, and I was madly in love with him. The first red pill/blue pill moment I had goes right back to when I was 16 years old and I was going out with my first boyfriend Nick* (not his real name). I’ve had a few moments like that in my life, what I call “take the red pill, take the blue pill” moments, where I can’t help but think that if I had taken the blue pill instead of the red pill, my life would have been completely different. Neo chooses to take the red pill which frees him from The Matrix into the real world. You take the red pill – you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the rabbit-hole goes. You take the blue pill – the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe. A group of humans who have managed to break free from The Matrix free a hacker called Neo, and he is given the choice between taking a red pill or a blue pill by Morpheus: While in places it was quite confusing, the basic premise of the film was that humans have been enslaved by artificial intelligence machines who have them “plugged in” to the Matrix which they believe is the real world, that is, the world we are in today. I’m sure that many of you reading this will be familiar with the film “The Matrix” from 1999 starring Keanu Reeves.
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